I only drink water.  The tongue coating got bad when I went full on no carbs.

I have always had tongue coating, so this is not new.

Butter is temporary till I get sick of it.  doing animal fat.  But I go through phases with what I want.  Eggs really grossed me out previously, and now I can't get enough of them.

The only other way I can explain it is that I can tell my body really NEEDS nutrition.  It is not like I am overeating.  It needs it.  AND GOBS of fat.  I wonder after looking on Bee Wilder's site if it is b/c it heals you.

What is "back fat?"  do I just ask my butcher for it?  why back fat in particular. 

My classes were fabulous today.  The brain is getting SHARPER.  HOORAY.  I'm glad I don't have to wait for this. 

Thanks for answering.  If anyone has other experineces.  The tongue is my fascinating study--I look at it every day and the breath--well, that also tells what my inside is doing.  On a positive note, the last time I did this, it took a long time for my urin not to seem bright yellow and dehydrated no matter how much water I drank.  The first week of this, I was bloating myself uncomfortably with water, but the kidneys were not processign it effecicientyl and I was still dehydrated.  Cut to today.  Drinking barely any--just to taste-I don't overdrink.  And I am not dehydrated. 

Any and all experiences are welcomed and appreciated!!!  I am on this for the long-term.  Now when I look at chocolate at Trader Joe's, I just think "unhappines.."

Hi Lex,

I can't figure out how to PM you and my computer annoyingly does not work with entourage.  There's some sort of problem that won't allow me to send it.  It just says sending and never does.  Can you check my latest post about candida?  Thank you very much!
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Hi Dave!

Nice to hear from you--yes, I do find that when I eat something that doesn't work for me, it reminds me why I don't partake of it.  Again, what I like about this forum is that there are a variety of people who have their own ideas about what is working and fascinating information and this is interesting to me.  When you are stuck in one mode, it is often too dangerous for you to see outside this.

so about the mat thing.  I may eventually get some sort of mat, but I am fairly lazy so I just use a yoga mat and put a sheet over it.  It feels so much better on my body.  I like feeling full of energy.  People say that it changes as you get older--what I think is that energy is different all the time, but there is a way to optimize this.

I haven't eaten yet today.  I am playing around with eating less and what I notice, is that when I go past a certain point, I am not hungry.  I'm fine with eating as often as I want, but I don't think I need to eat at times.  I don't mind eating for pleasure, but my point is, as for hunger, I  notice that sometimes tired gets mixed up with hungry.  So I like to see which is which.  When I am tired and eat b/c I am tired, this doesn't make me feel better.  Now I am not trying to lose weight.  But I do want to optimize my focus, so it's fun to experiment with these things.

I had a bit of coffee today, (just sipped a little at a small.  had cream and chocolate in it again.) so we will see how that goes.  If it's problematic it's going to get thrown out.  We will see....

Wodgina,

What do you do now? I love the analogy, in ref. to what Lex and You were talking about re: trying too hard.  Just chopping wood and being in the village.  I guess this wasn't an analogy, actually, but I like the point you are making.  I keep trying to tell myelf--just relax, and then things go better.  Then you have energy to act when you wish and act with fortitude!

Oh, that is good to know Lex that I can ask people's experience and advice on things. 

I realized when I looked at my journal that it sounded like I was saying eating a bite of cooked food made me feel lighter.  That is not what I meant.  I meant that RAW makes me feel light.  I LOVE this feeling.  I do not like feeling weighed down--by guilt, by anxiety, or by food or intestinal discomfort.  to me, it is all the same thing and clogs the spirit--spirit and body are like half and half of a whole for me.

So I had a little of my mocha and that was it.  It seemed to satisfy me more than tea which makes me feel wired in a way that is unpleasant.  I am not motivated to drink decaffeinated coffee.  I have read that the process makes it not so good for you.  Well, we will see if I go overboard on it, b/c it will end up tossed out the window if I do.  This is generally why I like keeping the diet as plain as possible.

I don't really like clothes very much or furniture.  I sleep on the floor now b/c the bed feels like a pile of mushy oatmeal, and I don't use a bunch of soaps and cosmetics.  This is not b/c I am trying to be "natural."  It feels natural to me to doe these things, just as it feels natural to eat this way.  as for sugar issues, that feels HABITUAL, which is certainly not the same as natural.  Habitual as a way to tune out. this is not the direction I wish to move in.  I would rather "feel" uncomfortable than dull it.

My goal is to find a balance where I can remove scars of my past with food, and be able to have small amounts of what I find pleasurable without ruining it by overdoing.  As for the meat, this feels easy and pleasant.  I never get tired of it.  I love the ease, like not having to cook, feel great eating it.  I don't miss vegetables one bit.  And I was always a "veg" person.  Bread is something I will stay far away from. It makes me feel dull, blocked, and lifeless.

I will be interested to see how my senses sharpen as I improve my health.

Hope this is the way you start the journal.  I'm going to test and see what happens.

thank you!  You are all so helpful on here.  I have been poring over all the material since yesterday.  Lex referred me to this site.  I love it!!!  I notice I am so much "lighter" when not cooking.

so what about the fish and the mercury issue?  I used to LOVE eating raw tuna but I think the mercury is a problem even if you are not eating carbs.  What about this....

so it doesn't seem as if anyone is RAVING about raw pork or chicken.  makes me not motivated to eat it. blech.  but I would be willing if someone had fantastic effects from it.