My husband (who is my husband, not just a friend) doesn't try to force any type of eating habit on me, he actually encourages me to go back to RPD because he knows what a difference it made for me. He just doesn't want the lifestyle of himself and I'm fine with that because he tried paleo and it just didnt work out for him in the end. The problem I am having is when he cooks something or pops open a bag of chips I start craving food. Its not necessarily craving what he has in hand but something similar... and its getting annoying when he eats things like sweets. I am just finding it quite difficult to turn away processed food and I didn't have these cravings before.

I need some help and I'll start off buy explaining the back story.

I haven't been on this forum in a little over a year. I was displaced from my home (my husband and I) from a house fire in February of 2010. When that happened we ended up moving a state away to stay with my parents. My parents' after about the 3rd day staying with them, started sabotaging my eating habits due to them thinking it was a "disgusting" way of eating (I was strict raw paleo at the time). After about 3 months of staying with them while getting back on our feet I was eating pretty bad. At first I just stopped eating raw and stuck to a basic paleo diet... then... disaster happened and I completely strayed away from the lifestyle all together. I stopped attending crossfit classes and the gym. I just, well, screwed up royally.

So, now a year later, I feel like CRAP. I mean REALLY BAD. I have been getting migraines non stop and for the first time ever I suffered from seasonal depression this year (very bad, to the point that my doctor prescribed me  the antidepressant Elavil). Also, I have gained....... yes gained.... 60 lbs. 

I need help. I have been trying for about 2 months now for the will power to go back to my old ways (raw, paleo, not feeling like crap) but I am hitting some major issues.

My husband is a junk food king. He always has been. It never bothered me, the choice was his and he never pressed his food habits on me. I think the past year he really enjoyed me eating the way I was. We were able to go out more to a lot of places and even hit fast food joints (that never happened before!).

I am finding it so hard to get back on track. Its a constant struggle to eat paleo alone. Eating raw feels almost impossible at this point. When I first transitioned to this lifestyle, it wasn't hard at all, but this time I feel like I have no will power. AND THE CARB CRAVINGS ARE KILLING ME, nothing is stopping them, no matter what I do, and its been 3 weeks now.

Please help me out, tell me your tips and tricks to staying on track. Give me some encouragement. HELP!

I eat them but rarely. I just crack the egg and bolt it down, sort of like a shot. The reason I don't eat them often is because I have this idea in my head - Eat the food as much as a forager would. I doubt our ancestors had eggs daily but probably more or less picked them up (food gathering) along the way.

My only problem is locating organ meat. Liver is simple to come by but other then the oriental markets in center city, I can't find anything, and unfortunately I don't trust the quality of product there. I would do mail order, but I don't know who to order from. I'm very limited on traveling outside of the city (Philadelphia) to obtain food.

I don't normally use spices just because I love the taste of meat raw. I'm pretty open to tasting just about everything until it comes to high meat, then I get a little freaked out. I still haven't overcome my fear of throwing everything up after or while I eat it. I have a ton of cinnamon in the house and a bunch of organic pears... hummmm maybe desert tonight? I wouldn't know where to start in terms of paring meat and cinnamon. Any suggestions?

i have 1100 channels and watch about 4 of them, 2 being 24 hour news stations. TV is only on when I get home from work to settle down. I work in a very high stress environment and TV lets me turn my brain off, but I have to say that I can't stand most of the programing on and if it wasn't for my husband I wouldn't pay for cable.

I've done mail order before, and the meat was great, but the expense was not worth it. Just my honest opinion.

All kinds of organ-meats as well? Suet, bone marrow? Fish, shellfish?

Marrow yes, random bits of organ meats here and there. I haven't been able to find many organ meats other then china town in Philadelphia and most of the time they are questionable in terms of quality. Liver is easy to come by though and I always have on hand because my dogs eat raw also. I noticed liver makes me feel amazing the next morning when I get up, its so easy to jump out of bed no matter what time it is. I eat raw fish a lot but I'm still trying to get used to eating raw fish with bones. Shrimp is easy to come by and always a favorite snack of mine so now I constantly keep some on had. I tried scallops for the first time yesterday and was blown away by how good they are! Still haven't tried a lot of shellfish other then just blue claw crab, what would you recommend? Is there anything that should be looked for when your purchasing them?

Have you tried raw meat?

Oh yes, for well over a year now. I haven't taken the plunge with high meat yet just because I'm a bit of a sissy. I've been around 70% raw for around a year now but I'm just now switching over to 100% raw because I'm noticing more and more being intolerable to cooked foods.

I just went 100% raw within the past week, always following a paleo and 70% raw diet I didn't think it would be that much of a change but something really weird has happened, my lips are red. I'm not talking normal pigment red either. My lips look as though I have on bright pink/red lip stain or lipstick. They aren't chapped or dry, they actually are fine. I was wondering if anyone has experienced this because no matter how much research I do I can't find anything on the topic. Thanks.