cbj's change your life

[cjb]

Hope this is the way you start the journal.  I'm going to test and see what happens.

[cjb]

so....my husband bought me a pricey ribeye.  I am used to getting them very cheap.  I ate the whole thing raw.  It was delicious.  I cooked a tiny bit of one piece just to test the difference.  So what I notice is there is a lightness, as though I am eating but not getting full in the belly when I eat this way.

I am relieved to be on here, b/c I like having the support of others, but also want to be able to be honest about what I eat without being shamed for it.  So I had a mocha today as well.  I hope I can say what I actually eat without people getting bent out of shape or I won't feel so comfortable on here. 

My goal is to feel light in body, sharp in mind, and strong in courage. 

[lex_rooker]

Looks like you're well on your way.  The best way to learn is find out what you can from others, then when there seems to be no clear cut answer that everyone agrees on, do your own experimenting and see what works best for you.  If you record this in you journal, you'll come back in a year and reread stuff that you had forgotten.  It's also a wonderful reference to pass onto others as links to answer a question that you've already worked through.

You can also ask questions in you journal that you don't think warrant a thread or where you think there might not be common interest (say asking for ideas on specific issue you are facing) and we'll respond in your journal.

Most of all have fun.

Lex

[cjb]

Oh, that is good to know Lex that I can ask people's experience and advice on things. 

I realized when I looked at my journal that it sounded like I was saying eating a bite of cooked food made me feel lighter.  That is not what I meant.  I meant that RAW makes me feel light.  I LOVE this feeling.  I do not like feeling weighed down--by guilt, by anxiety, or by food or intestinal discomfort.  to me, it is all the same thing and clogs the spirit--spirit and body are like half and half of a whole for me.

So I had a little of my mocha and that was it.  It seemed to satisfy me more than tea which makes me feel wired in a way that is unpleasant.  I am not motivated to drink decaffeinated coffee.  I have read that the process makes it not so good for you.  Well, we will see if I go overboard on it, b/c it will end up tossed out the window if I do.  This is generally why I like keeping the diet as plain as possible.

I don't really like clothes very much or furniture.  I sleep on the floor now b/c the bed feels like a pile of mushy oatmeal, and I don't use a bunch of soaps and cosmetics.  This is not b/c I am trying to be "natural."  It feels natural to me to doe these things, just as it feels natural to eat this way.  as for sugar issues, that feels HABITUAL, which is certainly not the same as natural.  Habitual as a way to tune out. this is not the direction I wish to move in.  I would rather "feel" uncomfortable than dull it.

My goal is to find a balance where I can remove scars of my past with food, and be able to have small amounts of what I find pleasurable without ruining it by overdoing.  As for the meat, this feels easy and pleasant.  I never get tired of it.  I love the ease, like not having to cook, feel great eating it.  I don't miss vegetables one bit.  And I was always a "veg" person.  Bread is something I will stay far away from. It makes me feel dull, blocked, and lifeless.

I will be interested to see how my senses sharpen as I improve my health.

[cjb]

Hi!

I woke up feeling better than ever!  I am thrilled with this way of eating.  I am naturally very mercurial, effervescent with the type of energy where people just wonder where it comes from.  When I am eatin gclean like this with a touch of pleasure, it gets even better.  I am more hopeful, more in touch with my inner vision.

I am thrilled b/c food is less on my mind.  I am thinking I might be able to balance having a bit of carbs with all the rest meet.  Carbs simply being chocolate and cofee, cream.  And then my raw meat. 

I am loving my new way of exercising--intense and short.  Then lots of rolling out and my yoga, but not spending the whole damn day exercising like I used to.  It's weird b/c I even like my face better lately.  I just feel better. 

Also I find sleeping on the floor is amazing.  I feel my body so well and this is wonderful.  I am feeling more open, too, in my personal relationship.  Things that felt threatening to reveal-my more covert nature (which wasn't covert for any reason of bad goings on but just fear of judgement and disapproval)--well, this seems to be loosening up as well.  With loosening of toxins--inside and out.  So I am feeling very joyful this morning!

Als, I notice I am no longer intolerant to heat, crowds, etc.  And when I exercised this a.m, lunging and running and switching off with weights and then without up these big steps, it was BROILING OUT, and it didn't bother me.  And I am no longer compulsive with exercise which is wonderful. 

ok.  htat's all for now.

 

[phatdave]

I LOVE your attitude ms cbj! This is exactly how I first reacted to eating this way. I think my interpretation was that with a more balanced mood, everything becomes better! pretty much along the lines as you describe above. I ended up going to a bartending show 4/5 days ago and got completely drunk (im 22!) and have eaten crap since. I can safely say that the difference is really really noticable with mood and everything that affects, and me overall mentally and physically. Unsurprisingly I can't wait to return to what feels right for me tomorrow now the weekend of work is over, but the last week I don't regret as it just puts things even more in perspective.

I was interested to read that you sleep on the floor. I know what you mean about beds. I was curious, did you bother buying a thin mat or anything, or just go super spartan on the bare floor? I love sleeping on the grass in the park on nice days and am definately going to try without my big oatmeal matress. Might by a thin mat too.

I also completely agree on clothes and cosmetics. The better I feel, the less need I have for 'stuff' to fill the void to make me feel good. Instead I have energy, and power, and feel strong - and so my need is very small. I havent used soap on my face for about 6 months now (and use very little in the way of anything else) and am so happy with how my skin has responded!

Anyways, was just happy to see someone who effectively has just written a little bit which completely mirrors my feelings. Thats whats great about these forums.

Take care, all the best (and hello!!)

David, UK

[cjb]

Hi Dave!

Nice to hear from you--yes, I do find that when I eat something that doesn't work for me, it reminds me why I don't partake of it.  Again, what I like about this forum is that there are a variety of people who have their own ideas about what is working and fascinating information and this is interesting to me.  When you are stuck in one mode, it is often too dangerous for you to see outside this.

so about the mat thing.  I may eventually get some sort of mat, but I am fairly lazy so I just use a yoga mat and put a sheet over it.  It feels so much better on my body.  I like feeling full of energy.  People say that it changes as you get older--what I think is that energy is different all the time, but there is a way to optimize this.

I haven't eaten yet today.  I am playing around with eating less and what I notice, is that when I go past a certain point, I am not hungry.  I'm fine with eating as often as I want, but I don't think I need to eat at times.  I don't mind eating for pleasure, but my point is, as for hunger, I  notice that sometimes tired gets mixed up with hungry.  So I like to see which is which.  When I am tired and eat b/c I am tired, this doesn't make me feel better.  Now I am not trying to lose weight.  But I do want to optimize my focus, so it's fun to experiment with these things.

I had a bit of coffee today, (just sipped a little at a small.  had cream and chocolate in it again.) so we will see how that goes.  If it's problematic it's going to get thrown out.  We will see....