Had a really bad one last night without realizing it because it was dark in my room. I'm about to go into the hospital in a little while cause I don't wanna fuck around, but I feel no pain and had felt none. The blood seemed very significant though. I'm thinking its because of the incredibly tight jeans I was wearing for a few days (slept in them one night, then for a long time the next. I always normally sleep naked). Also ran in them, and sat in them for a long time and noticed how uncomfortable I was often. Hoping it was just a ripped vein. I drank a lot the first night, and did not sleep well at only a few crappy hours (last night I slept decently well though, and for many many hours. Felt really messed up at about 7 p.m. and bombed). Will abstain for at least a week. The fact that my life is in a very, very bad place right now is not helping, I'm sure. I've been having thoughts of me just keeling over and dying, and I am aware of the brains ability to make the things you think about strongly and often a reality. Been starting the process of counteracting my minds self-negativity.
The incident could be a number of problems that the doctor doesn't even have any idea about. Any known incidents of jeans being a co-factor in this type of thing? I hear that it is indeed really bad for you. In the past I've had a comparatively very small amount appear at one time but it was never an issue after that. These are the first tight jeans I've worn in a very long time (mostly been sporting shorts, but god damn its cold now).
One thing of note may have been the fact that a very clotted piece of blood came out with my urination in the morning (along with blood). Dunno yet if my urine is strange. Currently consuming water.
