Oh yeah my digestive system isn't all there yet. I'm 1000% sure it's the reason for my fatigue issues.
I'll rattle off some new thoughts, some of them answer your comments:
* Raw beef at least is now normal to me. Freaking awesome! I'm very happy. It's the first non ground raw meat that I'm comfortable picking up, grabbing with my hands, and ripping into it.
* I'm curious if my teeth will adapt from eating raw meat... it isn't easy now. The easiest thing is to slice the meat in swallowable chunks, and I chew it maybe 2 times before swallowing. I notice if I'm not slicing it, then I have to try to puncture the meat with my canines and pull the meat. So THIS is why we have those.
* My seasoning game is on point now... I'm finally starting to realize I can eat tasty without all the bullshit. I cracked 3 egg yolks, dipped some beef chunks into it, then put salt, black pepper, little bit of chili powder and cayenne pepper on it... amazing.
* I actually have a bunch of raw liver / kidney I bought from my farmer. All grass fed, well treated animals (I've been to the farm and the pastures... so I'm comfortable with how the operation runs). A bunch of it is in my freezer. The taste still isn't easy to deal with for either. For seasoned beef / ground beef it's easy.... I can eat it while cleaning, reading, etc. When I'm eating liver / kidney, it's an ordeal and I usually have to stop everything I'm doing. I bought some raw honey mustard and that's been helping me get it down.
* I buy these packages of beef liver, and the bag comes with a bunch of pieces of it. The main problem I'm having is an interpretation one... I was told I need to consume thawed meat immediately... I don't know how much liver I'm supposed to consume in one sitting (and / or if I can do that) but what is happening is I thaw the liver, eat a portion of it, put the rest back in the fridge (because it's bad to freeze / thaw / freeze something) and then I get in my head because I'm like "ok but that liver in the fridge is thawed... so not only is it nasty, but a lot of the nutrition is gone in that one... so no use in eating it". I also put the liver in mason jars right now.
* I tried blending the liver for liver pate... absolutely disgusting. It was too liquidy and the taste was just too pungent. The good thing about eating the liver straight up, is if you cut it into small pieces, you just swallow it and then you don't taste it as much.
* In terms of the past couple of years, I've developed a belly pouch... that also inflates. My hunch is that when this belly pouch is gone, I'll be 75-90% healed.
* I'm doing a lot of raw eggs lately... 3 huge things I notice. First is testosterone. I've been noticing that I'm looking at girls more lately, and hold eye contact with them longer, and being noticed a lot more (I live in a major city). The 2nd thing, my energy has skyrocketed on the days where I consumed a good amount of red meat the day before, and then egg yolks in the morning. The third thing, is the egg yolks ARE still causing a lot of strain on my body. Like sometimes when I do 6 raw egg yolks in the morning, I get into work, and for like the first 2 hours there's a general sense of un-wellness, nausea... and then 85% of it goes away, becoming 15% and sort of riding the wave from 5% to 30% of the pain. I'm essentially chalking this up to detox and I may even up the dosage of raw eggs. I do feel like my liver is enlarged and that can either be because I'm anemic (again just taking guesses) or that my liver is clogged up. I know raw egg yolk breaks up cirrhotic liver, so I'm going to keep doing that.
* Since I started palaeo, I've avoided vegetables and supplements. I've avoided vegetables because this dude on this forum, goodsamaritan, has this site in his signature that said that vegetables should be avoided in the pursuit of fruits. I asked him on one of his posts but he didn't respond, and I hadn't read enough of the site to get a gauge on it. I'm now seeing that certain vegetables are commonly praised and rarely derided in raw palaeo circles.... cabbage, celery, asparagus. I luckily already had and kept a twin gear masticating juicer, so now I'm juicing cabbage... which has a high nutrient content and is said to resolve ulcers. I have some of the common symptoms of ulcers (sans bleeding) and maybe why I have the pouch... so I'm trying it, and there's no harm done if it doesn't work because of the nutrition content of the cabbage. I'm going to start to try to have at least a cup a day of fresh green juice... the only difference between now and what I would do before, is I won't try to make quarts of green juice and drink it all in one sitting, or juice shit like kale or fruit. Luckily because I did the whole vegetarian nasty supplement / juice, I can drink most of the more evil concoctions without any apple offsetting the taste, so I don't need to do any of this.
* The supplements are going to come back. I think this forum in particular has a very sort of... specific definition when they talk about supplements. What I'm referring to (which seems to be fairly accepted amongst RVAF'ers) is the idea of consuming trace minerals and some of the better supplements. Milk Thistle, boron, etc.
* I was a curezone boy before this so I've had Apple cider vinegar in the cabinet for years. I stopped taking it when I went raw because ACV will damage your teeth if you don't brush it off immediately (which I usually won't) and I have bad teeth. Also, I heard ACV can irritate the digestion system just based off of it's strength (which if you've taken ACV you know). I took ACV for a long time and my digestion only got worse. Now of course... that doesn't necessarily mean that it's the ACV but... my idea was that I'd start raw, start eating just a small subset of raw foods, and then slowly bring back old stuff into the picture and really study it again and pay attention to what my body is saying about it.
The main thing is definitely this: figuring out how much liver / kidney I should be eating, coming up with a good thawing / storing strategy (figure out the specifics of this "eat it right after you thaw it" line of thinking), figure out a good seasoning strategy (forget about this liver pate stuff), and then just continue to eat it to attempt to get accustomed to the taste.