After a phase of eating mostly cooked foods and chasing around various endeavors which I thought of as necessary conformity, my spirit took a dive. I realize that I was riding on the benefits of an austere RAF phase of at least 18 months through 2010-2011, alongside the fervent exploration of things that genuinely interest me. For the past month I've eaten raw meals multiple times daily and have been feeling stronger, alert but not irritable, and with a pleasant disposition. Life is looking up and I'd be doing the world no favors by failing to credit this way of eating.
It's been years since I've browsed these pages. There came a point when being 100% raw and regularly engaged in self exposition brought me into a differently unhealthy phase of life than the one I came out of. Of course that's not the diet's fault, I was young and would tend to move into phases with great intensity. I'm working to rekindle this energy in a more stable way, without alienating myself or the uninitiated, for that fire attracts energy that can be used for good.
Update about current situation, eating habits:
I eat plenty of raw eggs, raw red meat and chicken meals, raw dairy, and raw honey; alongside plenty of cooked food as well. I'm not as overwhelmingly concerned about avoiding toxicity. So long as my situation continues to improve I'm very comfortable indulging in whatever is served to me, though I do avoid the obvious sabotage of fake food.
It should be mentioned that I weigh between 180-190lbs(81-86 kg), whereas I weighed around 160lbs(72 kg) back in 2010-2011. I've taken to the idea of gaining weight for stability and well-being, and the difference is amazing. I have been very hyperactive throughout my younger years, taking prescribed methylphenidate(ritalin) for 7 years(8yo-15yo), but now I see that eating plentiful good food alongside a strong meditation practice and sufficient breathing is the true remedy.
I start this thread with my current experiment: Moldy Raspberry Juice.
The thought of AV's recommendations came to me while looking at some berries at the market. I let the berries sit in a cupboard for more than a week to accumulate a good starting culture. Then mashed them into a squished state, not totally mashed but enough to sit in their own juice, then into the fridge for 10-12 weeks.
This was consumed on Thursday May 28th, 2015. The effects should show up mid-to-late June(3-4 weeks post-consumption). Here's a photo of the juice, it was like a wine but more lively. I enjoyed, as it was very easy to drink. We'll see how the effects play out. So far I have been going for naps, I'm a bit more tired, but I wouldn't describe myself as lethargic. Today my lower spine started aching, not terribly, but in an appreciated must-be-letting-go-of-something sort of way.