I'm still planning on doing this soon, but unexpected challenges came up that have diverted my attention and mental resources, so I haven't been ready to take it on. As a result, I've now lost a week, which means I'll probably be lenient when I try and transition since I'll be in school, instead of trying to force a quicker conversion.
Not what I was hoping for, but it happens. Have to adapt to life sometimes.
My body is telling me now more than ever, though, that I need raw animal food. I've barely been eating (this has been a recent pattern under stress), which is a combination of the stress, no motivation, and zero appetite. Grain carbs and sugars sound disgusting; vegetables and fruits sound disgusting. Both make me nauseas when I eat them. Cooked meat is somewhat unappetizing, but better than those two. However, I've been extremely down and haven't had the willpower to make myself cook.
I keep fantasizing about eating raw meat every time I walk to the fridge and stare at the contents. I would call it bizarre, but it's a good thing, so I'm not complaining. I'm wishing I'd put in the order to Slanker's, but I bloody put it off because I didn't want to deal with cleaning out the freezer for space.
I should probably just force myself to cook SOMEthing. This has been going on for days, and yet I've avoided doing so. I'm basically living off of protein bars loaded with carbs and soy protein, because they're easy. Occasionally I have a sandwich with nice sugary jelly. It's disgusting. Even my carb-addicted body knows its disgusting.
On another note, I don't know if this will ever be relevant in my diet future, but my sleep schedule has been TERRIBLE. Completely nocturnal. I wake up between 4pm and 7pm and sleep at around 8am. Today, I stayed up until about 12pm, slept until 6pm; and then slept again from maybe 8pm to 11pm. It's 1am now.
I had about a week where I was getting a consistent 8 hours of sleep and feeling great upon waking, until my mood slid down. I was also able to stay awake a lot longer, instead of getting tired after 12 hours. This is completely unusual for me. I usually require 10-12 hours of sleep to feel even close to normal. My sleep schedule was still off, waking up between 12pm and 4pm, depending on when I went to bed.
Now, I think I'm sleeping anywhere between 9 and 12 hours a night and feeling like ass when I wake up, which just slides into further ass as I stay awake.
I have no idea what's causing the shift in sleep. I've been under equally high stress, so who knows? I don't know if it'll be relevant later, but there it is.
Right. Off to force myself to cook something with animal food in it. I've practically been an accidental vegetarian, and I doubt this is improving my bad mood any. It's as bad as living off of cake and little debbies about two weeks ago. Ugh.