Alright so, yesterday I finished off the milk, ate all six eggs, and nearly the entire pound of ground beef that I bought. Was hardly hungry at all, and it felt pretty good. Thought I might even keep the dairy in for now, maybe phase it out slowly, as I get better used to animals fats to keep me filled up for the day. Going to try to bring it down to two meals a day, with a (dairy)breakfast of milk, eggs, and cheese, then a (meat)dinner of beef and marrow, maybe more eggs if I'm still hungry or preferably liver instead if I can find any. Oh and also either throw in a lunch or an after dinner snack of fruit when I do eat it. That seems like enough to keep me from being hungry all day. Also going to try to fast for one or two days a week, maybe even three(all in a row), for one to save money, and for two during the days my dad has off from work and it's harder to sneak what I eat. Going to try to portion things better so that food will last longer.
I also didn't fast for today. I ate a bit of leftover meat from my ground beef that I couldn't finish off, which had sat out in my room all night and all day before I ate it, so it was nice and brown and tasty. Then a little while after that I ate some raw cheese, maybe an ounce, and there was probably two or three ounces of the meat left that I finished off. But that's all I ate today, otherwise only drank water.. been pretty hungry though, it's kind of hard to fast or restrict how much you're eating when you're working with tasty smelling pizza all day, and people eating it in front of you. But I don't have work tomorrow or the day after, so I'm going to try and fast for those two days.
I also found some decent marrow today, though I didn't buy any. The Ralph's down the street had beef bone marrow slices, only one pack though, and also some beef bone legs (labeled dog bones) that looked pretty good though they were pretty big and I have no idea where I'd be able to hide them. I also have no idea if it's grass-fed or what, but it's still pretty cheap, and if these bones don't smell gross like the other one's I bought from food4less, then I think I've found myself a good source of fat for now. I think I might have to throw out the other marrow, because it smells really unappetizing and I don't know why. I wish I had a dog I could share with though, so I could give them my leftover bones, this marrow that stinks bad, and any meat that gets too high for me to eat it. I do really like chewing on bones though. Now I just need to see if I can find some grass-fed liver, and I'll be a happy camper.
As for the passed couple weeks, I started out mostly raw probably about 2 and a half to 3 weeks ago. Been drinking nothing but water (or milk) since I started. I mostly started with raw eggs and raw meat and fruit, though I still ate pasteurized milk and cheese, and some raw bean sprouts. I was still very hungry when I first started, and ended up eating a couple of stouffer's mac and cheese dinners, mostly because I was about to start my period soon and it doesn't do good to not eat much right before it starts or while I'm on it. Also had a double cheeseburger with the bun and some breaded chicken strips at soak city when I got hungry. Had some pretty bad cramps when i started my period too, and had to take tylenol. Soon after I got off my period, and determined to eat better now that I wasn't menstruating, I went on vacation to vegas, where I couldn't bring any food along with me, and we only really ate out at restaurants. On the road to vegas we stopped by at fast food, and I got a couple of tacos with steak meat and cheese only, and I discarded the shells and only ate the meat and the cheese. Pretty much the entire vacation (of like 3 days) I ate as rare as I could get steak, sunny side up eggs, and fruit. Once I drank milk, and another time I ate a double cheeseburger, but I discarded the bun. I was extremely ravenous, and never full, I could eat a steak dinner twice in one day without feeling full, and even when I ate the fully cooked double cheeseburger, which was a full pound of meat with some cheese on it, I was still hungry afterwards. Nothing I ate made me full or satisfied my stomach. I began to think maybe I'd gotten worms which were eating all of my food and making me hungry. Once I got back from vacation, I fasted for one day, only drinking water. This seemed to fix my ravenous hunger pretty well. Also figured there wasn't enough fat in my diet which was why I was always hungry and also tired a lot, though I was already having higher energy levels, especially when eating raw eggs. Couldn't find any source of fat at all though, so I resorted to dairy. Problem was, all my dairy was pasteurized. Recently found a place that actually sells raw milk! As well as a bunch of other grass-fed meats. Bought a bunch of raw dairy and haven't eaten pasteurized since. Raw milk when fresh is absolutely delicious, and I don't understand why anyone would ever pasteurize it. Still looking for a good source of grass-fed animal fats though. Just the other day found some beef marrow bone slices at food4less, and bought them pretty cheap. But they smell really weird and the marrow smells weird too. Don't know if marrow and bones are supposed to smell like that, but it's very unappetizing and I think I might throw the marrow out, and try the Ralph's ones instead. If those smell/taste good, then I've found myself a suitable and amazingly cheap source of animal fat! And that's a summary of what I've gone through and eaten the passed couple weeks. Next phase is to try to get rid of the dairy, and stick to just animal meat, animal fat, and eggs. Also looking for a good source of grass-fed beef liver, and then I might even be able to phase out the eggs, or just eat less.
So far, the benefits I've noticed from eating raw are:
Increased energy when waking, and throughout the day if I'm eating enough, even with less sleep than normal, especially if I eat eggs; a more regulated sleeping schedule compared to the very erratic sleeping schedule I previously had; Dreams seem to be more frequent and more pleasant, however sometimes I do get times of dreaming that will go away so I don't know if it has anything to do with what I'm eating; breath no longer smells, even when waking or after eating, and I have not brushed my teeth whatsoever since before even starting this diet; teeth seem to be getting whiter and feeling stronger, and no longer ever have any sort of buildup or plaque, always feel clean; sweat and body odor have completely changed scents, do not smell as bad, almost smells sweet, and clothes never stink anymore; uh, feminine area seems to have changed scent somewhat, no longer as strong smelling and more pleasant, doesn't taste nearly as salty; stomach has flattened slightly and looks more muscly than fatty, as do arms, though I have always been skinny so there was never much fat on the belly or arms, and despite no increase in any sort of exercise whatsoever; muscles in general feel stronger and more eager to be used, whereas before I was extremely lazy and never wanted to get up and move around; skin feels softer, not as much need for lotions and conditioners for hair either, and also started showering using only water and no soap or cleansers whatsoever; seem to be getting less acne and face seems to be slowly clearing up, most of the zits I do get go away by themselves which never happened before, or pop quickly and easily, and acne on the back/shoulders/chest has disappeared completely; and improvements in general mood and happiness.
Eating cooked foods like the steak and eggs during vacation seemed to show up with buildup/plaque on the teeth and slightly bad breath, and also included sleepiness after eating, sleeping longer hours at night, and feeling a bit more tired when waking up.
Otherwise, these are the bad things which I have noticed during this diet:
Everytime I lay down to go to sleep or when I wake up in the mornings, I get a stuffy/runny nose akin to allergies every day which I never used to get before, except every once in a while; I'm still getting acne, even though it's much less now, but it still keeps popping up here and there, and the blemishes from previous acne are taking forever to go away; I'm still hungry a lot throughout the day, though it's probably because I'm not eating enough, but I was able to more frequently go with much less food and feel fine while on SAD; infrequent bowel movements, sorry for being frank but I've only pooped probably about 3 or 4 times since starting on this diet, even during and after the three day vacation of pigging out on cooked meat and cooked eggs and fruit, I still didn't have a bowel movement afterwards until a couple days later, and I still don't ever have any.. I don't know if this means I'm constipated, because I don't ever even feel like I have to go at all either.. or if it means I just have some sort of super digestion that breaks down and absorbs absolutely everything I'm eating, because it doesn't seem to be going anywhere else. I still pee normally, I've seen no difference in the frequency or even colour of my pee, but as far as #2 I haven't seen much of anything.. and before going on this diet I was pretty decently regular, usually would have at least one bowel movement a day if not more, and only sometimes went a day or two without one, but I'd eventually have one. It's pretty well got me stumped and I have no idea what to do about it, or if it's really even a bad thing. But yeah, that's about it.
So really, the benefits in my opinion far outweigh the bad, and I'm determined to keep up on this diet.
My MOST looked foreward to goal right now is the clearing up of my acne. I have been plagued with this curse for so long now, which has only been getting worse the older I get, spreading from only one spot at a time on my face when I was younger, to a couple spots at a time on my face, to my whole face, to more recently on my entire face, and neck, shoulders, back, and chest, and even sometimes on my ears, and it's one of the main reasons I've been so shy and un-confident my whole life. Seeing it cleared up from my chest/shoulders/back/neck already is a blessing in itself, and has greatly boosted my confidence. I am no longer afraid to show off my shoulders or my bare back! If my face completely clears up for the first time in my life, I would feel like the most beautiful girl in the world. I would have the utmost confidence in my appearance, especially along with my now always clean teeth and never bad smelling breath, I would feel like I could conquer the world. I would feel free. It would be amazing. I am already feeling some of that confidence, and it is awesome. I want more. I want to be the best. My acne is the only thing holding me back. I want it gone. I want it gone naturally. I never took medicines to cure my acne because I don't want the side effects, I don't want to become reliant on any drug, I don't want it to be that whenever I stop taking it or doing it I break out again. I want it to go away by itself. This diet so far is the best thing to ever happen to me.
Last but not least for this extremely long post, I will add that I have begun working out seriously since the other day. My legs are still so sore that it is difficult to walk, but I have someone who will hopefully help to motivate me. I am very weak though, and can't do much for now, but I'm going to try and do as much as I can of girly pushups(because I can't do real ones yet), sit ups, squats, and jumping jacks. Also going to try to add in random stretches and exercises that I remember doing from P.E. and Karate if I can and remember. I can't really do more than 20 of anything except jumping jacks, which the most of those I could do at once was 45. So yeah, that's everything up to date I supposed, and now it's passed my bedtime so I'm going to sleep now.
