So sat night i was kinda pissed cause things are not quite going the way i want in life, and my dad was irritating me amongst other things. Anyway's, i have not had a full blown food "relapse" yet (2.5 months rpd no cheating at all) and my dad is always like "one day a week u should slide and get mcdees/junk food ect" to keep mental sanity, as he relies on this stuff hourly to run off a constant sugar buzz. So basically i was sad and did not give a f#*k last night, and thought mid as well document this "experiment" for u guys if im gonna poison myself
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So i had roughly 15-20 mini choclate bars quickly of :reese pbc, o henry, mr.big, wonderbar . The effects that occurred were:
Immediate: -Bloated( felt i could not move and could not eat anymore), I also tried to throw it up but somehow this garbage tricked my body into believing it is real food and couldnt get it up.
-Tired (i slept from like 11-9) with crazy crazy dreams because of the peanuts.
-Addictive. This is the CRAZIEST thing is how much i wanted more and how addictive it is. Even though i could not stomach more, i still wanted it soooooo bad, the shit is like crack cocaine (as i even contemplated briefly having more the following day lol).
-I was reallllllly thirsty while eating. I drank a lot of water while eating and after, as i was parched and figured i dont want this stuff to digest really either.
9am the next morning: -sinuses all clogged with really yellow mucus/specs of blood.
-a feeling of disorientation/unawareness/disconnect of mind/body
-MOUTH TASTES LIKE SHITTTTT. This is happened to me everyday before rpd, so it was a comical remind of my old state.
-mentally foggy/mild mild headache. I feel like i just downgraded from my new macbook pro to my old POS Dell virus box.
-Strong urge for more sugar. There are a bunch of bananas my dad got in the kitchen and i want soooo bad.
-my ears were ringing. This is probly more to do with the sinuses being messed up.
-my eyes looked dead. Peoplel notice my eyes are very wide/clear these days, but this morning they looked BAD.
-burping a lot/indigestion
-intense dyhydration
-abdomminal pain once the garbage got moving inside me from drinking water.
-my voice dropped signifigantly!!!! (can someone please tell me why?
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Overall id say the biggest blow is to my sinuses and mental state. The worst part is just how addictive that stuff is, and how dull i felt. Today (sunday/halloween) i am doing a water fast till late tonight myb monday depending on how i feel, as i want the lectins and other various poisons (soy lectin/milk powder, wheat powder ect) out of my body. I can now see why fat/SAD people eat so much of this shit, as they cannot feel their body and the repercussions, so they just have more cause its so instantly satisfying and addictive, i remember in my sad days i ate so much candy and never felt like i do right now. Questions/comments please.