Day 24:Ok, once again something I need to cut out..
I'd been eating real sauerkraut bought from a farmer in the last two days and today. Sometimes my mind is such a mess. I've had such horrible experiences with certain foods in the past two years, mainly causing cystic acne. All foods which are very acidic always led to horrible, huge breakouts of cysts along my jawline. This included any citrus fruits, even apples, and recently realized also acidic cultured/fermented foods like kefir, yogurt, sauerkraut..
I'm all into experimenting with different foods, as you should know by now, and sometimes it takes a few tries to realize what's good for me and what's not.
I would always read about the digestive and overall health benefits of fermented foods and gave all these kinds of probiotic foods many different tries in the past few years. I always found that these foods had the opposite effect of helping digestion in any way. These foods would always just fill my body with gas to sometimes a painful level. I also read about the possible hormonal benefits from eating cruciferous vegetables, as to somewhat help keep estrogen levels down.
After these three days on sauerkraut again, every day I seem to have been able to tolerate eating less and less food. What I mean, is, there seems to be less room in my body for food as the sauerkraut takes up lots of space and causes lots of gas for me. In the afternoon, even hours after eating, I was struck with a tiredness that was all too familiar to me from my days of very poor health. Even later, I became quite itchy in some areas, especially along the jawline of my face. After some scratching, I found that there was a cyst forming, as I just get engulfed in stress.
I was able to calm down and stop touching the spot. No more mirrors or any touching of my face for the night. My time with severe cystic acne over two years ago has not only scarred me physically, but emotionally, so whenever I find some kind of spot, a door to deep depression and deadly stress is opened. Keep in mind, the last time that happened from food was months ago, before I started my journey with RAF. It's tough, but I've learned many ways to manage my stress that I've been able to apply now. I'll see what comes of this in the next few days, but for now I have to completely forget about my skin.
No more sauerkraut. I am sure many can have a great benefit from it, including some of you on here, but this absolutely not for me. It seems like it is even directly causing me stress as it sits in my stomach, like short bursts of stomach pain with very negative emotions out of nowhere. As for the amount I was eating, I did eat a little more of it today than I did in the other last two days, but this is still no good for me. I hope this did not cause any kind of damage to my intestines, which is what could have happened when I used to eat these foods in mass amounts, believing they were healing me.
Sauerkraut aside, sleep, energy and skin have all been quite great. I need to keep positive, no matter what. No stress.
My Slanker's order just arrived. I'll be adding meat and suet back into my diet, slowly, for two weeks now. Then, I'm off to Switzerland, where I should be able to maintain a diet of grass-fed meats, eggs and raw dairy, although most likely not in such abundance as I have it here, as prices and availability will vary.. maybe it'll be good for me. I've kind of missed eating meat lately, but I hope things continue to go well with it back in my diet again, as it's been a few weeks and definitely don't feel a complete need for it.
Looks like they were out of liver.. damn..