Day 0 Starting Tomorrow, What Do I Do About My Relationship?
Hey everyone, I have been reading the forum posts for awhile now and decided I would join today and start a journal.
So I have been fasting for the last 25 days, starting with a brown rice fast, then a juice fast, and a little bit of water fasting in between. I feel pretty good doing the fast esp. after eating the crappy processed store bought and gut tearing fast food off and on for the last four years. I read "We Want To Live" about 5 years ago and even tried most of the raw suggestions in the book at the time. I felt amazingly well when I did and even cured of most of my ailments after about 3 months of doing it 100%. I couldn't handle the raw dairy back then, but the raw meat, raw honey, some vegetables, and a little bit of fruit and nuts did the trick. I quickly lost those last impossible 20 pounds, felt euphoric, had immense energy, attracted the most amazing people in my life, and was very successful at everything that was important to me. I made the mistake of allowing a little bit of cooked food in after awhile, thinking it would be ok and some people gave me a hard time for doing a raw diet because they didn't understand it, so I kind of got self conscience and strayed from the one thing that gave me true healing. The weight started to creep back on and I started to feel sick again as soon as I quit eating the Primal Diet/Raw Paleo way of life. I got focused on other things and put my health and well being on the shelf.
To make a long story short I met a great woman, we fell in love and ate unhappily ever after. She has a great metabolism and can get away with eating anything. She stays thin and in great shape and has loads of energy. I on the other hand put on about 90 pounds after eating a SAD diet with her, my old issues of anxiety and depression started reemerging. Then came the headaches, migraine auras, fatigue, irritability, inability to handle stress, sleep issues, sleep apnea, and obsessive thoughts. And many more things to add to the list. I remembered how good I felt on on Raw Paleo, but just remembered how expensive it was and how nobody could understand it. So I thought there had to be something else out there that would help me with my ailments.
I tried cooked low carb, low calorie, raw fruitarian, calorie cycling, exercise, Testosterone replacement, medications you name it I tried it. The 2 things that did help me feel better and actually lose some weight were "The Body For Life Program" and Brown Rice fasting. I dropped around 47 pounds in the last 9 months of doing that. Although they helped immensely with weight loss, it didn't get to the root of my problems and I knew that I had to do the one thing that did give me results years ago "The Primal Diet".
I knew from previous experience that fasting would kill my sugar and cooked food cravings and also help clean myself out. So that's what I have been doing for the last 25 days. I made a vow that I would start up on the Raw Paleo lifestyle tomorrow and see where it takes me this time.
The one stress-er that keeps revolving in my brain is my girlfriend. See we always have what we call a "date day" every Sunday. We normally spend the whole day eating and going out. For the last few weeks I have been fasting on our date days, and it really seems to be upsetting her. We go out to places but I have little energy and can't eat anything with her. I have a feeling that doing Raw Paleo is not going to be any different except that I may have more energy and feel better. Today she got really upset with me and took off with the car and said I don't know what we are going to do if we can't eat together anymore. She is totally turned off by the thought of eating raw meat, and she is one of those clean freaks that is always worried about getting contaminated by food. I offered to do picnic style date days where we can bring our own food anywhere we want, but she just isn't going for it. There are no raw food restaurants around, and unless I eat what she's eating its not any fun for her. I just don't know what to do
