Hi, my name's Darren.
I've had depression, severe fatigue, sinus congestion, acne, and some other stuff since god knows when. Plus I've been skinny my entire life and tired of it.
For nearly the last three years I've been some kind of vegetarian. Although I felt lighter and more focused without eating meat I didn't have much energy and felt zombie-like much of the time, but because I'm so damn stubborn I stuck to it for 2 1/2 years. So I discovered raw veganism and did that for three months. In certain ways I felt a lot better like I wasn't depressed about much, except food which was ruling my life at the time. I felt way more mental clarity which is what I liked best. But I thought about nothing but food, was needing tons of sleep, had intense cravings, no motivation, and something just felt missing. AND I didn't want to risk getting any thinner to be honest. The last month of my raw veganism I was on the 80/10/10 diet which is basically fruitarian + greens. God, it sounds great on paper but I consider this the most potentially dangerous raw vegan diet. I was basically relying on sugar highs to function. It did teach me to not rely on complex, gourmet-type food all the time, which was hard since I used to love cooking to the point of considering it for a career.
Well that stuff didn't work and the last week I ate whatever cooked food I wanted to. I've been allergic to dairy the past year, so I didn't eat that. And I began to intuitively realize that wheat was not making me feel so well. Part of me has been wanting to move toward raw again, but not the way I've been doing it. The last couple days I've been eating Paleo, with everything being raw except the meat. I'm now ready to make that raw as well. Actually today I ate all raw, eating sashimi and ceviche. I'm pretty phobic about beef. I think I'll marinate it in lime juice like ceviche in the beginning. I don't have We Want to Live yet or any kind of raw meat book, so I'm holding on to whatever advice I can get. I'm broke so I'll probably gravitate more toward non-organic meat, but I WILL check the local farmer's market tomorrow to see what they have. I'm keeping raw meat a secret from my mom because I know she'll freak out about it, and that might lead to some mischief later on. I still have a lot of questions that I can't think of right now, but I'll save that for a different time!
Ciao!
