I have finally found a source of GF suet, which the butcher gave me for free : ), so I am adding it to my low carb meals of chopped fatty lamb, liver, fish, broccoli, cucumber and egg, to increase the fat to protein ratio. I gather from previous posts that 50/50 'meat'and fat by volume is a reasonable target (to give ~80% energy from fat). I have also been eating high meat with each meal and taking cold showers in the morning.
Also I have started taking Iodine Plus-2 tablets after reading how important it is from other RPD contributors (iodine 5mg, iodide 7.5mg, selenium 15mcg, B2 15mg).
My body feels very strong, and my mind feels quite weak.
Unfortunately I have been eating some fruit, raw almonds, coffee and yogurt over the last few days, and last week I did cheat on a crap food binge, so still need more focus to really find out if the low carb RP diet is a solution to my condition.
As normal I have been feeling anxious & tired with constant headaches, and lately have slept very poorly (although it was quite nice to be awake during a dream last night when I was flying around above a crowd of people). It is weird that being more tired can make it harder to sleep. Then when I awake feeling not so good I tend to make judgement on how bad I feel, think about some poor choices that contributed to this problem, and dream up ways to escape, like to move to commune, live a nomad life in a camper van, or to find peace in death . But the reality is I have obligations to my family etc so I really need to focus on reality and how I can contribute the best to moving forward. Whether I am in pain or not there are still things that need doing and worthwhile opportunities to pursue.
To improve this situation I need to start exercising more, since I can remember feeling my best when I used to have a lot of exercise, training for multi-sport events and mountain biking. So I need to make a priority to do regular runs and strength exercises. This helped a lot when I was on SMD so it could be even more effective when on RPD. It is just an extra challenge to exercise when tired, but this is something that is really important to push through and wake my system up to get it processing faster.
Also I have got a lot of 'self improvement' books out of the library, which highlight how important positive affirmations are. So I need to start thinking mainly encouraging thoughts about myself and my situation to focus my mind on what good I can achieve, and how well I can be. The book Happiness in Hard Times has pointers on this: Like yourself; Be flexible; Focus on what you want; Get relaxed with money; Be grateful. My mother gave me the book Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway, which has a lot of affirmation type thinking.
Then there is meditation / mindfulness, which is supposed to be very helpful, so I would like to try that as well and see if I can learn to relax. For some reason my mind seems to be stuck on the 'danger' setting, which for some people would be exciting, but for me is just very tiring.
I suppose I am taking life too seriously, and am scared of making more mistakes, when in reality a lot of things don't matter that much, and more success and health can be obtained when living with a more care free attitude. Anyway time to get back to work!