Since you all want to know more about my diet, here it is
Recently gone back to eating lots of raw fruit and vegetables, some SAD food, rice, and potatos, a little beer and wine, eat cooked meat, BUT am holding off 100% on raw meat because even having a tiny bit right now kills my brain function, I just stop caring about anything, and the world doesnt relate to this. While raw meat is an excellent pain killer, and just makes you not care about anything, that is both good and bad.
My problem abruptly and suddently happened about 4 years ago and has lasted ever since. Basically, I was going along without any malignant problems, untill one day, Actually after I was given some Ritalin from a friend at college, I just woke up a different person. I socially couldn't be myself, I couldn't work hard on anything, I had no quality to myself, I slept all the time, I was acting weird, and watching myself do it from the inside with no control to stop it, just to watch it happen while I was literally possessed by another person. It never went away, even after stopping all drugs, partying, alcohol, school, social life, eating "healthy", seeing doctors, etc. However, one day I tried gluten free, and felt how food could change my mind, which lead to grain free, which lead to paleo, which eventually lead to raw paleo. My positive results were that the diet changes eliminated a lot of the pain and allowed me to do basic things again. However, I still haven't regained the spark, that personality that used to be me, and without that, I can't regain my friends, or social life, or have a serious career or profession, or really a good life. Diet as allowed me to not be in incredible pain, but I haven't gotten my spark back.
READ THIS, for all those "wise" people who want to diagnose me and tell me what's wrong, I GARENTEE you are telling me nothing I don't already know. ONLY GIVE ME TREATMENT STRATEGIES, NEW FOODS TO TRY, MEDICINES, PORTION CONTROL, BREAKTHROUGHS THAT REALLY WORKED FOR YOU, AN ONLINE SUPPORT GROUP THAT ALLOWS PEOPLE WITH DISABILITIES TO MEET, STUFF LIKE THIS. DON'T TELL ME TO CHANGE MY MIND, OR OVERCOME SOMETHING, OR WHATEVER YOU BRAINWASHED YOURSELF WITH TO IMAGINE YOU GOT BETTER.