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Well, I crave to do social things, and the only way I can do it is to abuse Ritalin once again. I have used it very rarely since that incident, but didnt get signficantly worse, just stayed about the same. Right now, I can never get excited or enthused, or feel like myself about anything unless I'm on caffeine or ritalin. Basically, I need a stimulant to feel like myself. Before turning 20, I used to never need anything to get excited, it just happened naturally. I can feel how it's the front part of my brain that won't turn on anymore. The thing is, I dont' hear of this happening to anybody else from ritalin use, a bunch of my friends and tons of people abuse this drug way harder and way more often than me, and don't have problems like me, so I can't really blame the ritalin. Since diet had such an impact, it gave hope that there was a bigger picture here of poor health of my brain body connection.
^^ I've tried everything Aajonus Vonderplantiz as suggested, tried raw milkm butter, raw animal suet, raw oragans, etc. Organs are good, so is raw fat, dairy is not good.
But I discovered that I was eating way too much raw oragans and muscles that it was way too much iron in m system and making me way too tired, etc. Too much of anything is bad. I had soo much in my system, that right now, even a little raw suet, raw organ, or muscle raises that iron back to being too high. In a few weeks, I'll probably start eating raw meat again.
Charlie, different drugs affect individuals differently. I highly suggest you stay away from Ritalin at all costs since it is what started this whole fiasco in the first place! Who cares if other people can abuse it. You aren't them. Other people can eat sugar but sugar does me all sorts of damage. I can't think straight, I get depressed, I can't move. Others it makes happy, me it depresses. Same thing with coffee - except it makes me angry too before it depresses me. If you have to do something then at least just drink coffee until you get this figured out as it's not as intense of a drug as ritalin. But both might have affected your adrenal function. Is your temperature normal? Do you ever get pains in your back just below your kidney area?
You are so right that too much of anything can cause problems - especially for some people. How do you know that you have too much iron? Did you get it tested? So it sounds like a small amount of raw organs and fat is good - you just can't over-do it because of the iron. Is that true? Can you eat raw organs and raw fat and not have the deadening get worse? Milk doesn't work for so many people that it's not surprising.
Does fat really have a lot of iron in it? Fat is so essential for brain function that it can't be overestimated.
How about raw eggs. That's in AV's protocol right? How do they sit?
I can't seem to eat more than a tiny bit of muscle meat but I can eat tons of fat. My brain seems to really love the stuff and my body is happy with it. I've never heard of fat containing lots of iron. Would someone else chime in here about the fat and iron connection?
Charlie, I'd like to try to convince you to not try to push the energy you want by unnatural means but to try to keep on experimenting and working on a natural and healthy long-term solution. If you keep on experimenting and working on the problem that the Ritalin caused by trying to deactivate what happened to you or reactivate what was turned off rather than push it further by taking more Ritalin - I think you might have a better long-term life experience in general. It's going to suck not having energy, but from that place you can see how natural things you try affect you or not. As long as you are unnaturally forcing things you don't have a baseline from which to analyze things. Besides, something obviously went terribly wrong with a drug. The way to try to make it right isn't by continuing to take more the drug that made it wrong in the first place.
Some dietary things really helped you. It took away the intense pain for instance. There are certain healthy things you can eat. No one here is telling you to eat too much of anything. It's a delicate balance for all of us as individuals. I can't eat too much fruit or I get loopy. Everyone has different imbalances to deal with. Eventually, if you are persistent, you get closer and closer by getting more and more information and hints as to what might and does work for you as an individual.
Please stay hopeful. People have come back from much worse things than what you are experiencing. You are able to think and aren't hallucinating right? That gives you a LOT to work with. You also have a whole group of people with experience and ideas here to help you work it through - however long it takes. All you can do is start where you are.
I'm going to repeat a couple of the important questions here at the end.
1. How do you know that your iron levels get too high?
2. Do organs and fat make your system more depressed?
3. How do eggs affect you?
4. Is your temperature normal? Do you have any physical pains?
and I'll add one:
5. Have you tried high meat?
Thanks for talking about your experiences Charlie.