I have a very strange experience to tell you about. I was taking my dog for a walk. I was standing still in grass right by a forest. I spotted a deer run out of the grain fields and into the forest. This deer was very close, so I'm sure that played a role in my experience. I've seen wild deer but never this close.
At that moment I felt something very strange, a heightened awareness. Basically my eyes felt wide open, and I felt as if I couldn't close them even if I tried. Everything was so vivid. I had NO THOUGHTS during this. My mind was quiet during this whole experience and even after. I actually still feel it now but less. It's kind of what people strive for during meditation but way better because it was natural. The feeling was sort of euphoric, I felt a burst of energy, and my eyesight and hearing were perfect. I could see and hear everything clearer than I ever have, without a single thought. I spotted another deer and without thinking about it, sneaked up on it, very slowly, and with a knife in my hand. During this whole experience, I didn't feel as if "I" was actually doing anything, I felt like it was my instincts. I had no idea any of this would happen.
The deer eventually ran away and I stayed there a good 5 mins just staring around, with very quick movements of my head when I heard a sound. Anything that looked like a deer in my peripheral vision would cause me to quickly look at it with eyes wide open and vision so clear it's ridiculous. It actually reminds me of how cats hunt.
When I returned home, I couldn't sit still, and I could not really converse with anyone. I still felt the energy in my blood, and I felt as if I couldn't control it. My wife's sister was over at my house and apparently went to the bathroom. I heard a door slam and immediately felt as if someone broke into the house, so I grabbed my knife. I tried to open the bathroom door and it was locked, so I was preparing to kill someone. I went ran into the living room to tell my wife to stay back and I noticed that her sister was gone. At that moment I calmed down.
I think a huge cause of this euphoria/adrenaline rush was that I was VERY hungry. I haven't eaten at all today and it's 10:30 at night. This actually happened only an hour ago. I think my instincts were preparing me to kill that deer. I didn't even think about it once, I instinctively sneaked up to them. Seriously, this was probably the BEST feeling I've ever had in my life. I actually felt like an animal. And this was NOT just in my head. I didn't even think about this ever happening. I had no thoughts, extreme awareness, both in vision and hearing, and I felt for once that LIFE was driving me and not "me". I did hear about this adrenaline rush that people in the wild feel, and that is a similar feeling to being on drugs, if not better. I've never done drugs, so I can't compare it.
Have any of you ever experienced anything like this?
