Hi Charlie,
You probably didn't expect to hear from me, following my last post. I'm not going to tell you what to do or how to do it. I'm not as well schooled as some of the others regarding curing/over coming your symptoms/concerns. I'm not here to preach to you either! I'm sorry if I seemed a little too abrasive in my posts to you recently. I guess I just don't fully understand your thought process. But, that's OK. So I apologize if I came across as telling you what to do. I understand your on your own path to discovery, and you have to go at your own pace. I know there are a lot of knowledgeable people you can draw upon in this forum if you choose. I'm sure you already know, there are a lot of people who are willing to take the time and help you out. If you decide to take that route, I know you would be well supported with ideas/suggestions.
I know you said the RPD makes you aggressive when you were on it. Not to argue with you, but most people (in this forum) on the RPD have the opposite effect. I think most people are curious/concerned to your exact path/diet, as to why you are getting those negative results. I hope you decide to give the RPD another chance when your ready too. I actually started cold turkey, and I went through some growing pains as well. There is a transition period when your body goes from running on glucose to ketones as its main energy source. I don't recall if your transition was like mine, or you transitioned at a slower pace? Here are some of my experiences when i started on the RPD. I felt tired, had little energy at times (drained), had sugar cravings, and became constipated on top of that. It was all part of the detox and change your body makes, when your body shifts from glucose to ketones. It's a tough transition, I won't lie to you. But, it's all worth it if you are disciplined and stick to it. But, each and every individual is different. I'm not saying you need to choose my path. Because as you know, all of us in this forum our on our own very unique paths to full fill our nutrition and health requirements. You just have to pick the path that works for you and your body. But, let me also state that I believe in the RPD more than any other diet I have ever been on. You have to believe in it, in order for it to work for you. That's the Secret! When your ready, I encourage you to give it another shot.
I like that you have reached out, and extended yourself to the forum with your struggles. Because that's the only way you can get the true answers to all your questions. I applaud you for that. It takes a lot of courage and fortitude to do that in a public forum. The majority of people here are not here to judge you (myself included). There seems to be a lot of members that care about you and your well being, and want to see you get the help and support that you need/desire. Only you can make that decision for yourself, and I hope you won't feel like anyone's telling you what to do. Look at it as suggestions. Your going to get a lot of them if you open yourself up. It's up to you to decide what's right and best for you. Remember, you have control on what advise you follow, and how you want to implement it. It's always up to you to decide for yourself.
I'm not posting this to persuade you one way or another. I just hope you look at the situation with an open mind, gather up as much info as you possibly can find/get, than make an informed decision in the best interest for yourself. Once you start to fix/work on yourself, everything else will fall into place with your life. If you push it when your not ready, you will only frustrate yourself. Which causes anger and resentment (IMO). The ball is in your court charlie, it always has been. Make what you want out of this post, messages in the forum, or suggestions from other people. Take advantage of all the wealth of information/knowledge that is out there. I know you desire to get/be better. The hardest part is always reaching out. I hope you find the answers and solutions your looking for. Good Luck in what ever direction, decision, or path you decide to take!