Glad you liked my ramblings, haha.
I always hope that at least a few people will be able to understand what I'm getting at.
I am actually at a point now, after analyzing the fuck out of every single aspect of life, that I feel like I will eventually be part of it again.
On this journey to health, after finding raw paleo, I started becoming more and more aware of how sick everyone was.
Of how wrong everything was in the world.
Of how stupid we were.
I hated it all, everything and everyone.
I basically exiled myself.
Then after looking so deeply into everything, and finding every fault that I could (OH, there were MANY),
I was finding myself feeling a sense of... ease?
Since I knew and understood so much, so much more than most people do,
I was able to begin looking past it.
I saw the horrible flaws in people, the deeper you look, the more flaws you'll find.
I found so many, in each person.
I got very depressed, I had lost faith in humanity haha.
Then I had a long conversation with my family, about a family conflict that was going on.
I realized something incredible:
They TRULY cared. They were invested fully in finding a solution to this problem.
ALMOST everyone has good inside them.
Everyone is just lost.
Everyone is just sick.
I, myself, was sick and angry and miserable (throughout the first 2.5 years of my recovery)
I felt isolated, like I couldn't even go out for dinner with people because I couldnt eat what they served.
I couldn't do anything. The world was useless to me.
The more I learned about my health, the more that was true.
Then, after finding marijuana, raw paleo, a great naturopath, and a nice house of my own, I feel real again.
I started seeing the potential in everything everywhere, I regained hope.
I felt such a strong sense of purpose and comfort when I realized that I know whats best for people, I know the way, I can teach them.
If I can't teach them, I cannot blame them,
I clearly just need better methods of teaching.
See, the world is a giant network of people right.
And it is scientifically proven that we are all connected, on a very real level.
If you exist here, and live to serve yourself, in doing that you are actually doing the opposite.
From what I make of it, you must get yourself in perfect condition (mentally and physically), and then live your life serving the planet.
I don't mean by going to your job and following the set of rigid rules society lays out for you.
I mean by teaching others, by helping others reach health, it will be hard.
But in doing this, I believe you can reach fulfilling happiness.
I don't believe that in my lifetime I will see a happy planet earth, no.
But I am just a number, right?
Just one of the billion people. I'm just going to spend my life helping.
There is already so much literature out there, people are beginning to understand.
And I'm just one of them.
So are you, embrace it.
Read 'The Art of Non-Conformity', by Chris Guillebeau. I was recently introduced to this book, and it really confirmed what I had been thinking about life. Certain thoughts, not all, but as I said its all just a start.
I had been thinking of a bunch of the controversial things written in this book,
I felt alone, no one liked my ideas.
I felt a little crazy, then my aunt showed me this book.
I realized how people all over the world, who have lived very different lives, are all catching on to the same problems in our world. People are starting to realize.
I'm 20 now, and quite a few people have talked to me about raw paleo.
I have told many adults about it, and the ones that take the most interest so far are professionals of some kind.
They are VERY interested, and wish to learn more.
They had never heard of it in their lives, but I have. And I'm 20.
I hope that gives you some idea of how people are catching on.
Have faith in the world, and know that all you can do is help change it.
It's beginning to consider going in the right direction, help it!
Otherwise, what are you even doing?