Alright Kaizen, you big fool.
Or small, can't be sure from that avatar you've got.
A brain injured girl can do whatever the fuck she wants if it helps her heal.
If it helps make the healing a little less painful, as it takes a painfully long time, even without added pain.
The marijuana video is a real recording of how I was doing at that point in time.
It was for the purpose of showing people what brain injury can be like.
All of my first videos are trying to do that.
Once I noticed that people we're generally incapable of comprehending them, I stopped posting them.
The marijuana was my only help, and I was devastated that a 'doctor' would deny me something so important.
You don't comprehend things, thats why I asked you if it clicked in your head.
I can't believe you have the nerve to judge me. You are an absolute fool.
The rage is another thing that brain injury caused. I was telling you about it, I wasn't asking for anyone's opinion on it.
Fuck everyone in my life thinks that they can just have opinions on my brain, and them be valid.
Seriously, you can't know.
No one here knows what it feels like to look down and see that your knuckles are white because your fists are clenched so hard, to feel the anger coursing through your veins, the tears flowing down your face, the hateful thoughts clouding your mind, all for seemingly no reason at all. That's what would happen when I really fucked up my digestive system.
Now it's not so bad, but I'm still not better.
No, I'm not 100%, and I might never be. No way to know, as far as I know.
I owe the progress I've made to this 'diet'.
Because for the 2.5 years or so before I found it, I was healing but getting sicker and sicker all at once.
You don't know what you're talking about.